subtleties of our familiarity

contest!

2009-09-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

'SHOPAHOLIC ON THE LOOSE' bag up for grabs!

it's sunny here all year round but what the heck .heh.

contest hosted by Shelley Mulshine, you've probably seen her if you've ever visited lookbook.

Hectic week.

2009-08-30T13:18:00.003+08:00

Teachers' day, piano exam, prelims, bestie's visitng for a few weeks, and so is sissy and my niece. Gosh I'm gonna go crazy. Plus I've gotta find some time to study too. bleh. somehow. :/

Oh well, anyway... I'm excited. :D

sense of achievement

2009-08-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

finally figured out differentiation and integration. yay. thank god for the internet.

(skip this if you can't stand reading :P)

excerpt from a story I just came across:

A musician wakes from a terrible nightmare. In his dream he finds himself in a society where music education has been made mandatory. “We are helping our students become more competitive in an increasingly sound-filled world.” Educators, school systems, and the state are put in charge of this vital project. Studies are commissioned, committees are formed, and decisions are made— all without the advice or participation of a single working musician or composer.

Since musicians are known to set down their ideas in the form of sheet music, these curious black dots and lines must constitute the “language of music.” It is imperative that students become fluent in this language if they are to attain any degree of musical competence; indeed, it would be ludicrous to expect a child to sing a song or play an instrument without having a thorough grounding in music notation and theory. Playing and listening to music, let alone composing an original piece, are considered very advanced topics and are generally put off until college, and more often graduate school.

As for the primary and secondary schools, their mission is to train students to use this language— to jiggle symbols around according to a fixed set of rules: “Music class is where we take out our staff paper, our teacher puts some notes on the board, and we copy them or transpose them into a different key. We have to make sure to get the clefs and key signatures right, and our teacher is very picky about making sure we fill in our quarter-notes completely. One time we had a chromatic scale problem and I did it right, but the teacher gave me no credit because I had the stems pointing the wrong way.”

In their wisdom, educators soon realize that even very young children can be given this kind of musical instruction. In fact it is considered quite shameful if one’s third-grader hasn’t completely memorized his circle of fifths. “I’ll have to get my son a music tutor. He simply won’t apply himself to his music homework. He says it’s boring. He just sits there staring out the window, humming tunes to himself and making up silly songs.”

In the higher grades the pressure is really on. After all, the students must be prepared for the standardized tests and college admissions exams. Students must take courses in Scales and Modes, Meter, Harmony, and Counterpoint. “It’s a lot for them to learn, but later in college when they finally get to hear all this stuff, they’ll really appreciate all the work they did in high school.” Of course, not many students actually go on to concentrate in music, so only a few will ever get to hear the sounds that the black dots represent. Nevertheless, it is important that every member of society be able to recognize a modulation or a fugal passage, regardless of the fact that they will never hear one. “To tell you the truth, most students just aren’t very good at music. They are bored in class, their skills are terrible, and their homework is barely legible. Most of them couldn’t care less about how important music is in today’s world; they just want to take the minimum number of music courses and be done with it. I guess there are just music people and non-music people. I had this one kid, though, man was she sensational! Her sheets were
impeccable— every note in the right place, perfect calligraphy, sharps, flats, just beautiful. She’s going to make one hell of a musician someday.”

Waking up in a cold sweat, the musician realizes, gratefully, that it was all just a crazy
dream. “Of course!” he reassures himself, “No society would ever reduce such a beautiful and meaningful art form to something so mindless and trivial; no culture could be so cruel to its children as to deprive them of such a natural, satisfying means of human expression. How absurd!”

Meanwhile, on the other side of town, a painter has just awakened from a similar
nightmare…

I was surprised to find myself in a regular school classroom— no easels, no tubes of paint. “Oh we don’t actually apply paint until high school,” I was told by the students. “In seventh grade we mostly study colors and applicators.” They showed me a worksheet. On one side were swatches of color with blank spaces next to them. They were told to write in the names. “I like painting,” one of them remarked, “they tell me what to do and I do it. It’s easy!” After class I spoke with the teacher. “So your students don’t actually do any painting?” I asked. “Well, next year they take Pre-Paint-by-Numbers. That prepares them for the main Paint-by-Numbers sequence in high school. So they’ll get to use what they’ve learned here and apply it to real-life painting situations— dipping the brush into paint, wiping it off, stuff like that.

Of course we track our students by ability. The really excellent painters— the ones who know their colors and brushes backwards and forwards— they get to the actual painting a little sooner, and some of them even take the Advanced Placement classes for college credit. But mostly we’re just trying to give these kids a good foundation in what painting is all about, so when they get out there in the real world and paint their kitchen they don’t make a total mess of it.”

“Um, these high school classes you mentioned…”

“You mean Paint-by-Numbers? We’re seeing much higher enrollments lately. I think it’s mostly coming from parents wanting to make sure their kid gets into a good college. Nothing looks better than Advanced Paint-by-Numbers on a high school transcript.” “Why do colleges care if you can fill in numbered regions with the corresponding color?” “Oh, well, you know, it shows clear-headed logical thinking. And of course if a student is planning to major in one of the visual sciences, like fashion or interior decorating, then it’s really a good idea to get your painting requirements out of the way in high school.”

“I see. And when do students get to paint freely, on a blank canvas?”

“You sound like one of my professors! They were always going on about expressing
yourself and your feelings and things like that—really way-out-there abstract stuff. I’ve got a degree in Painting myself, but I’ve never really worked much with blank canvasses. I just use the Paint-by-Numbers kits supplied by the school board.”

***

Sadly, our present system of mathematics education is precisely this kind of nightmare. In fact, if I had to design a mechanism for the express purpose of destroying a child’s natural curiosity and love of pattern-making, I couldn’t possibly do as good a job as is currently being done— I simply wouldn’t have the imagination to come up with the kind of senseless, soulcrushing ideas that constitute contemporary mathematics education.

Everyone knows that something is wrong. The politicians say, “we need higher standards.” The schools say, “we need more money and equipment.” Educators say one thing, and teachers say another. They are all wrong. The only people who understand what is going on are the ones most often blamed and least often heard: the students. They say, “math class is stupid and boring,” and they are right.

Continued here.

Pretty much the reason why so many people fail math, and yet why some people can do well without studying math.

headache

2009-08-27T20:42:00.003+08:00

shopping at orchard on a whim after school yesterday. last minute plans. hahahah.

integration&differentiation is giving me a headache. damn teacher just has to twist the questions so much. ):

Argh i'm gonna spend the night doing integration and differentiation.

just cause she's so cute.

2009-08-26T19:26:00.003+08:00

AWWWW.

teehee.

Happy (early) 1st birthday Audrey! <3

resolution

2009-08-25T21:34:00.003+08:00

1. I'm gonna go on a diet for the rest of the week till sept 1 cus I can't eat anything spicy/heaty/oily/fried which pretty much everything except for porridge. And I totally rather starve than eat porridge. Lol. Must get rid of my sore throat before my piano exam or else i'm gonna flunk the aural. Arghhhhh.

2. I must drink more water. Like somebody I know who keeps complaining that she needs to pee. Hahahha. (to the person mentioned, I know you're gonna be laughing at this)

3. I must get a new waterbottle so I'll drink more water. Having a waterbottle would mean that it'll put some weight into my feather-light schoolbag and i'll be forced to drink water. :D

4. I will study everyday and limit myself to 30mins of computer a day. Self-explanatory.

5. I will not lose my temper.

6. I am gonna keep my calm no matter what happens.

And if I'm really pissed off I'll run to my room and shut the door before I start shouting.

Yay, good plan. Almost finishing Amath revision, 2.5 topics left to cover! Finishing amath is as good as finishing emath and i'm left with only 4 subs. Techinically, 5 counting ss and history. Gonna go study till midnight now, and then off to the airport to fetch my aunt. :D

random random random

2009-08-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

The randomest things makes me happy.

I think i'm on msn too much. Not to mention my smses. I've got unlimited sms but still I think I shouldn't sms so much. Makes me feel withdrawn for some reason. Hahahha.

Oh well. I really need motivation to study with 60+ days left to Os. Shittttt. Apparently CKN's gonna take action against those ponning history SRP. Hahhaha. Like, after the last lesson's over. What a joke.

Relatives and friends all visiting within the next few weeks. Argh, screw the bad timing. Why must it be the (intensive)study period when I want to hang out with people and have a good time? FML ):

watermelonz

2009-08-22T09:43:00.004+08:00

too cute to resist posting. my little niece :D

heehee. it's been a good week, overall.

all work and no play makes a good nerd

2009-08-20T22:07:00.003+08:00

fly high, fly free.

Gonna cut down computer time. A LOT. 30mins a day to not touching it at all after prelims. Gosh i'm gonna become so lifelesssssss. I'm still contemplating if I ought to close the blog till Os. I don't really blog that much anyway.

Oh and today the (english oral) examiner was like fing irritating. The moment I paused for a breath at the end of the sentence she shoots the next question. Gosh, I don't need to be prompted! I just needed a second to take in a breath of air to continue talking. Bloody dimwits. Some of the other examiners asked if the candidates were done speaking before continuing. Bleh. Not fair. *whines*

Okay nevermind, it's over. Hopefully I'll be able to do well for my english. Hopefully.

I'm gonna study hard, and properly, starting today. Damn, it's been ages since I really studied and worked hard. Like, since march? Last year. Hahhahaa.

mushroomsoup ftw

2009-08-17T23:14:00.005+08:00

Whywhywhywhywhywhywhy.

i don't know.

okay I'm talking to 3 people who i haven't talked to in awhile. they remind me of a little weird mushroom but it aint the same. LOL.(yes, laugh, if you get the joke.)

i like my pics. taken on my camera. by me. :D

can't wait for it to be all over.

chinese results out wednesday. doomsday.

you know,

2009-08-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Beauty you'll never see.

Taken at changi. Pictures at 6 in the morn' look so awesome, screw the rumours about the ghosts lingering. Hahahaha. Awesome weekend.

Probably gonna post sporadically from now on. (:

:P

2009-08-16T18:43:00.002+08:00

I iz having a suer sexy voice nowwwww. I swear I'll stay away from chocz and curry and chips and fries and fizzzzzydrinks and icecream for the ~~week~~entire month. I'll prolly cave in by day 3 but who cares.

but my throat really hurts and it sucks. ):

on the bright side, i've just cleaned out my cupboard and got a whole load of mum's vtg clothes. :D

tonguetied

2009-08-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

Tongue Tied (higher pitch) - Faber Drive

Bright cold silver moon

Tonight alone in my room

You were here just yesterday

Slight turn of the head

Eyes down when you said

I guess I need my life to change

Seems like something's just aren't the same

What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars

I wonder just where you are

You feel a million miles away

(I wonder just where you are)

Was it something I said?

Or something I never did?

Or was I always in the way?

(Was it something I did?)

Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

But every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we

never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we

never fall down again...

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Listening to the song addictively on repeat thanks to J who said I should listen to it cause it fits.

Ended school pretty early, 1240! No srp either (Y) Studied physics again, 4 chapters! Teeheehee maybe my physics can be rescued. I think I'm finally getting my motivation to study, somehow. Time to get back on track.

13year bestie from kindergarten visiting in two weeks. Amazing how you can meet the strangest people sometimes.

2009-08-11T23:39:00.004+08:00

voodoodoll. not a "real" one tho, not yet anyway. it's still nameless. :D

*evil laughter*

yay i finally started on physics today! 3 chapters, and i feel somewhat accomplished. hahaha, damn slow and lazy. my voodoo doll's damn cute, just sewed a sequinned cloth to it's back and now it's my handphone sock. heh. today's a good day. it's great how i can leave jeslyn's place at 846 and be eating prata in my dining room happily by 850. okayy, gluttony.and i'm craving for mushroom soup! no idea whyyy. ):

got some stuff from asos, might post up tomoz.

I'm gonna study hard for prelims. I'll score well. Not gonna procrastinate any longer, not gonna give up in fear of failing, and i'm definitely going to put in my all. I wonder what 3 weeks can do. Heh. Just one last chance, tomorrow.

Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Eventually.

ugh

2009-08-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

pretty crystal lights.

sore throat, eczeema flare up agiain. fml. aircon sucks.

perspiration + blanket = rashes (eczeema)

common sense, doesn't take a genius to figure it out. why the hell are some people so bloody stubborn and closeminded and so effing arrogant that they refuse to believe what anybody else says except for what they think is right. screw it if i'm going to have to print pages of technical information to prove pricks like this wrong i'll do it. small things like these get on my nerves way too much and they wear me down.

when mushrooms talk

2009-08-10T17:10:00.001+08:00

Everybody's telling me to study, even the mushrooms, if they could talk. HAHAHA.(inside joke ;D)

I need to study. ):

2009-08-10T02:51:00.001+08:00

okay shit i chickened out. notttt good. oh well. maybe i'm just asking for trouble anyways.

random thoughts

2009-08-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

Maybe even if everyone thinks I can do it and maybe even if they're right it honestly doesn't matter as much if the people who matter don't believe.

Most of the time I wish I lived a different life.

Yesterday somebody asked me if i felt there was meaning living on this earth. Automatically, I answered yes(duh), but when the person started to pester me to ask me what the meaning was, I honestly couldn't put it into words. Meaning about life is different to everyone, isn't it? Some feel there's really nothing worth it on the earth while others love the world so much they fear death. I don't know why I think so much over silly things.

People live, people are happy and people die, everyone dies in the end. Even though I keep saying it, it kinda annoys me when people tell me the same thing. Tsk, I'm such a hypocrite. Well, the damn question got me thinking. There's happiness, true joy that only comes from God, and there's pain. But, come to think of it, it's somewhat meaningless, you'll leave most of it when you die, no? Okay shit I think I'm becoming a pessimist. Hanging around too many depressing people. Haha.

rant!

2009-08-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

warning : advised to skip. :D

Damnit. My aircon's not working(properly) and my dad claims that it is. Feels like it's 26degrees when it's set to 16. Bloody hell, 6 years and he refuses to get it serviced and claims I'm making a big deal out of nothing. Stupid guy still has the nerve to make a big show of over-dramatically shivering the moment he steps into my room. Wouldn't you be wasting more money on running an aircon which isn't even cold? It still takes electricity!

Only reason why I make a big fuss is cuz the aircon's not working and he's making a bigger fuss when I whine about it. Bleh. I'm starting to sweat in my sleep. Not good. Argh I think I need to place a thermometer in front of the airconditioner and snap a picture before he'll even consider servicing the aircon. But even then I'll just get another scolding.

Why are parents so unreasonable?

Okay I'm being immature but wouldn't you be cranky if you wake up sweaty in the morning with your aircon switched on at it's lowest? ):

And, complaining to nobody in particular makes me satisfied even tho nothing's gonna be done to my poor unloved aircon.

physics tutor, anyone?

2009-08-07T23:50:00.003+08:00

I promise I'll do something. Something, anything.

Today I kept bumping into peopel I know, weirddddd.

1) took a cab home from school, meixu getting out of the cab that i entered. lol.

2) headed to bishan to meet ky, marcus(koh) boarding the train as I got off. (dejavu, much?)

3) saw kahseng and his gf, alywin and queena at ion.

4) bumped into shingpeng at wisma.

gosh singapore's damn tiny. too bad i didn't bump into any mushrooms. (hahahhaa i bet you're laughing at this huisze/nanaaaa)

Had fun shopping tday with kengz. Got a pair of jeans from topshop damn cheap, $29 reduced form $103 :O Oh and new heels too. Ate dinner at ikea with dad, the swedish eatballs damn awesome and he wanted to eat there toooo. Hahahha spontaneous cravings.Teehee, I sneakily got a new rack for my room scattered with so much clothes. Oh and on the contrary I really don't own much clothes, half of what I wear usually belongs to my mom :D

Made milk tea earlier, success though the tea taste damn diluted. Yay randomness and I've got a history tutor whoopeeee~

I need somebody to teach me physics!

dilemma

2009-08-06T23:45:00.001+08:00

gosh i don't now what to do. stupidly small things give majorly big headaches. ):

i did not.

2009-08-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

go to school today.

i did miss 3 papers tho (Y)

hahaha, super killer migrane in the morning first thing after waking up.

oh wellllll.

I wanna sew. I wanna rip up my tees(in a good way). I want to shop. I want to make new friends. Okay i'm talking crap.

i need to study. oh i need motivation to study properly too. study? no problem. studying without motivation? yeah i'll read but i won't absorb.

help.

i can't stand it

2009-08-06T00:29:00.002+08:00

because.

i've got a ton x37452829 ideas in my head and i want to write them all out on paper but i'm scared i won't complete it and i won't look at the paper again till like months later.

damn procrastination. oh and i'm procrastinating my sleep (is that even possible-for a pig like me. HAHA.)

tomorrow i will go buy a sketchbook. a preeeeeetty one. i'll fill it up with all my lovelywonderfuldefinitelybetterthanyourskickassouttathisworld ideas. :D i'll dress it up with a pretty cover to match. but that's tomorrow. after the 3 science paper 1s which i did not study for. the real studying begins for prelims, no sooner, no later.

okay but that'll be tomorrow cause it's 1233 in the morning and obviously i can't go out and buy sketchbooks.

kiss

2009-08-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

today

finally satisfied sushi cravings

made plans

brainstorming

talked crap

did not spend money on shopping

finally got my eyebrows done

adrenalin rush!

migranes ):

gossip

piano lesson

talked about even more crap

epic failure mj impersonation

my singing sucks ):

there was a roach

freaked out

almost screamed at the roach

had fun anyway

great day, even with the migrane. i'm thankful for an eccentric piano teacher and even kookier students to wrap up my wednesdays with a bang. literal bang today, bang went the slipper against the wall killing the tiny cockroach.

k.i.s.s

keep it short, stupid.

berry sweet

2009-08-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

Surprises went well. Teehee. Okay, so after recieving a 'random love note' from somebody last week, weird ideas started to pop into my head. Heh. So since somebody turns 16 today, I made chocoolate dipped strawberries for her as well as for val, stacia, shauna, huisze and jes. Hahhah, feels kinda good after doing this. They're happy, I'm happy they're happy, everyone's happy. HAHA. Simplest things in life mean the most sometimes.

Too bad I didn't take any photos though. ):

Chem SPA today wasn't too bad. Headed home to change after, and the went for dental and met jeslyn. Shopped around novena for a bit, then we went to ion! Didn't get anything tho. Saddddd. Oh well. City hall after that and then we took a bus back. Stupidest thing was that we alighted at different bus stops tho we live a minutes' walk away from each other, cuz our parents were fetching us from the bus stop. Hahaha. Damn lazy.

Plus so many banglas around the area and you seriously can't see them sitting under the trees anytime past 8pm. I'm serious! It's bloody scary to see something moving in the dark and then you realise it's a person.

never knew

2009-08-03T23:41:00.003+08:00

love and hate can coexist perfectly together.

thanks for teaching it to me.

i want to give up. enough with the fighting every single day when you don't even care. and i need to vent. badly.

i need god.

i miss you.

peeeektures.

2009-08-02T12:16:00.003+08:00

cracked screen ):

temporary set up for now.

oh and this was what i spent my saturaday doing:

wrapped up some old mouldy corkboard with pretty textiles and pasted all my crap onto it. looks wayyyyy prettier and less shitty now. hahah. more detailed pictures sometime in the future.

and... the blue cloth is sequined! heehee. some shing*! added to my room now. i see more sequin-ny stuff in the future. *evil smirk*

okay i should be studying bio.

what's going on with me?

2009-08-02T12:05:00.002+08:00

No motivation to study. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. ):

What now?

I'm scared I won't start in time for Os. Yet I'm still procrastinating.

Shit. I need motivation. And inspiration too.

I've got tons of pictures in my camera that I want to post up but I'm just toooo lazy.

Maybe tuesday or wednesday.

Finally shopped the past few days. Clothes, a bag, lipstick, accessories. Yay. :D

and I'm still waiting for my online shopping to arrive.

germans selling jam

2009-07-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

Today there was this lil' cute boy selling jam outside Jeslyn's. Like half a minute walk from my place? I felt really sorry for him. He's some 10yrold german kiddo. Apparently he's got two brothers selling jam too. Hah, they live in one of the large bungalows nearby I think. I wonder how much time they have on their hands for them to resort to selling jam. :O

I hope his brothers are older brothers and hopefully some hot guys. Hehhhhhh.

Hahahha, damn random.

I finally went to ion today with Renee and Shauna. YAY. Screwed up amath&history i think. Physics tomoz, don't really care either. Hahah. Window shopped today and bought a new denim jacket. Satisfied. More shopping tomorrow! Hahah. Can't wait.

I'm getting my life back on track. ASAP. :D

Enough moping about. I'm sick of it. It's like trying to colour zebra stripes on leopards, dumbest thing ever and it'll never work. Giving up, moving on and living with the regret. A small lifetime regret for peace of mind and normal-ity. It's worth it, nothing's ever perfect. :D

yay shopping. online shopping arriving soon. (i hope)

impatienttttt ):

losing it.

2009-07-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Whoever said that it's easier to say things to people in a letter rather than face-to-face was wrong.

I need to calm down.

I need to stop having these mood swings.

I need to calm down now.

I need to think clearly.

I need a good slap right now.

Right now I feel like I just want to crawl into some nice dark, cold place with a delicious cup of some caramel drink. It's not that I like the cold, my entire body's just perspiring like crazy.

fml ttm. I think I'll end up depressed or mentally unstable if I go on like this. Cheer me up, please.

Oh, I need to study too.

Mocks start monday. I honestly don't give a damn about all the papers right now. It scares me.

God, I miss you, I need you.

I don't know what to do anymore.

finallyyyyyy

2009-07-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

POP/POC(passing out parade/ceremony) today, FINALLY. I guess it went well, as we didn't have to do much, duh. Just train on our march in and to find the time to sign the cards we made without the sirs seeing. Heh. The ceremony didn't consist of much, just us marching in, getting our gifts, watching videos and listening to speeches.

Oh, pictures from the video was seriously damn random. Even a pic from Iskandar's birthday party. Like, WTH. Hahaha.There was a video for miss yip as well, as she's leaving us to go to japan. ):

More speeches for her,then we went up on stage and surrounded her, thanking her for everything she did for us, personally. Haha. Phototaking and refreshments after, and that was it. After that we took more photos, jumpshot as a squad holding hands and all. Damn gay. Changed and left, headed to sengkang for kiteflying.

Everyone was damn sporting, almost everybody went which was shocking. First and last outing as a squad, haha. Took loads of photos, some of the guys ended up playing basketball while the rest flew kites.

Great day in all, exhausting but fun. :D

I'm feeling content. Heh.

why?

2009-07-24T20:46:00.003+08:00

I don't know. I really don't and it bugs me. Wouldn't it bug you too?

I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow and everyone will be sporting enough to go fly kites. Something fun and memorable for once. I hope I don't end up going home early. That'll just be depressing.

home doesn't feel like home anymore. Just some place where I've got a comfy bed and warm shower. What happened? I promised myself I'll never turn into someone like that.

I hate it when people assume stuff. When they assume that I'm annoyed at my parents because it was some typical spat. I wish it was. Don't you hate it when people assume?

What a wonderful change that would be. I don't know what else is there left here. Do you?

I don't know what's the point anymore. I think I don't actually want to know. Maybe it was just my imagination & subconscience working overtime.

i wonder if you were serious when you called me fat.

2009-07-22T21:52:00.003+08:00

oh well, everyone has insecurities.

damn nice right. teehee.

Been doodling in class the past few days. Roses and butterflies. Hahaha. Chinese listening today was alright. Decided not to go for friesbee today since open league's cancelled. Had to study for the damn SPA tomoz. Just got home from piano, ended late cause the previous student came late. Bleh. I'm feeling kinda lethargic. I just want to sleep and relax and not study for SPA. Damnit.

Hmmm, physics SPA on friday too. Oh crap, that reminds me. I don't know the topic. Shit. Ughhhh. I'm so not in the mood for this.

why do people get to me so easily? I feel fat&ugly. ):

f`ing insecurities.

tick tock

2009-07-19T21:29:00.005+08:00

out with nana last night. (:

randoms

2009-07-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

cause i'm bored.

random pics from past 4 years. :O

Mostly from this year/last year tho.

kinda miss having short hair. should i cut my hair short again?

quickie,

2009-07-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

Tom Felton's damn hot! Watching Harry Potter tomoz. Hahhah excited. :D

singing myself to sleep

2009-07-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

♥ indie rock.

And im up, down spinning around
Im high and dry and cant feel the ground
Im lost and i'll never be found

My lips where much too shy
The lines about you, they never rhymed
And you said i never get things right

And baby where'd you go
I need you here tonight

Singing myself to sleep
And you're still my favorite melody
It's been three weeks
How long can this go on
Singing myself to sleep
And you're haunting every memory

And goodbye, get out of my life
Goodnight

And you're hot, cold
You're better in my bones
You run while i lose control
I miss you
Forever you'll stay gold
And girl you know i'm not getting by
I've lost it, you're in my mind
And everydays the darkest stuff of my life (life)

Baby where'd you go
I need you here tonight

Singing myself to sleep
And you're still my favorite melody
It's been three weeks
How long can this go on
Singing myself to sleep
And you're haunting every memory

And goodbye, get out of my life
'cause im drowning when i close my eyes
And im fallin' cant breath tonight

And a story i fade to black inside (inside)

Singing myself to sleep
And you're still my favorite melody
It's been three weeks
How long can this go on
Singing myself to sleep
And you're haunting every memory

Goodbye, get out of my life, goodbye

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addicted to the song and i'm listening to it on repeat.

bye, books are my new boyfriend. ):

can't wait

2009-07-14T18:55:00.004+08:00

i miss the holidays. can't wait for all this shit to be over.

Can't wait for the weekend.

Shopping, dressing up, make up and hanging out. Awesome awesome awesome.

Class photo + shooting finals today. Screwed the finals. ):

Got a bad cut on my finger. Stupid contact lens cover cut me! I'm damn noob so shut up. Lol. Cut's damn deep and hurt like hell during the shoot! UGH. Oh well least I got into the finals. 10th place out of hundreds ain't that bad. twitter account restarted toooo. :D

Started it around the same time as this blog but left it to rot in the end. Haha. Okay time to start studying hard for my exams.

MOCKS LESS THAN TWO WEEKS AWAY.

Os ROUGHLY 100 DAYS AWAY.

time to buck up.

I need motivation. Motivate me please.

love you, miss you.

come home soon love.

huiszeeeeeee!

2009-07-14T00:25:00.002+08:00

Almost forgot :X

Haha I know you'll love this

damn old but the best i could find ):

heehee.

i need plasters ):

2009-07-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

shit i need plasters to cover my piercings tomoz. ugh and fucking msn isn't cooperating with me! arghhhhhhhhhh.

oh wish me luck for tomorrow! i'm in the top 10 for the .22 revolver shooting competition. LOL.

weekend

2009-07-12T23:08:00.005+08:00

never give up,

Ewwwwww I wish my brother would stop blasting Lady Gaga music 24/7. Her music's great but imagine hearing something like pokerface early in the morning when you're dreading school and such. Ughhhhh. And maybe, Just dance, while doing homework. Plus every other song on the album in the car on the way to the mrt. :/

He's making me sick of the songs prematurely. So either I blast music in my room 24/7 or listen to Lady Gaga. I'm not surprised if my hearing deproves. LOL.

Weekend flew by. Saturday went for frisbee for awhile, then headed home to shower and slept over at Shauna's. Went out again today to study that's about it. Teehee, had fun though. Plus I'm getting started with my mindmaps, FINALLY. They'll all be laminated and pasted all over my bathroom walls by next month :D (Heh, something Jeslyn&I are gonna try) Craziness, but I'll be the one laughing when it helps me to get good results. HAHAH.

Okay, 11:11pm now, 2 chapters of chem left for tomorrow's test. Time to face the colour pens and mind maps again. ):

dreading school this week. gonna be one helluva hectic week.

SRP EVERYDAY (!), except tuesday. Cause I'll be going for .22 Revolved shooting finals. But everyone else is stuck in school and not free to accompany me which is bloody saddening. Wish me luck, okay!

Can't wait for Os to be over and then I'll have the time for myself to travel, for my piercings, tats, and whatever else. can't wait. This hellhole's seriously driving me nuts.

truly

2009-07-11T09:44:00.002+08:00

happy?

Maybe. Favourite aunt's coming down in a month. She's one of the few people I can confide anything in. I even told her about my first 'bgr' before anybody else(apart from friends) knew. Haha. Weird how I'm closer to her than my cousins. Plus she coming down from the US means spam online shopping cuz of free/cheaper shipping! :D

Oh, yesterday was pretty much one of the scariest days. EVER.

Best friend bumping into the ex, freaking out.

Another friend fainting in town, THRICE. That was the scariest, I guess. Plus it was only the two of us. So, kids, learn your lesson. Don't skip your meals and pills or that'll happen to you too. Okay whatever.

Can't wait for the month ahead. Studying + online shopping + normal shopping. Then my aunt's coming. & my best(est) friend ever. LOL I sound so immature. Heh, august's gonna be an awesome month. Gonna have to find time to cram in all the fun between studying.

Okay time to study and be a good kid. :D

a, b, c, d, e

2009-07-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

yay alphabets. :D Okay nevermind. Lol.

a, idiots who spread rumours/secrets really suck.

yeah, common sense. (:

b, bastards who pms 5/7 days a week are bloody annoying.

damnit, you're a guy. stop acting so moody and like, grow some balls.

LOL.

c, my phone's screwed up. just recieved an sms and it started playing 'heal the world'.

& THAT'S NOT MY RINGTONE!

lol my phone's on silent 24/7 ^^

screwed phone.

d, i'm doodling with huisze everyday in class to keep me awake.

hahhaha. stupidly awesomeshit with bloody cute drawings!

heehee, upload soooon.

e, ending here. I've run out of things to say. :D

Letters could just mean more than what they seem.

so,

a,b,c,d or e?

omg i got into the shooting finals.

2009-07-09T18:14:00.002+08:00

too bad it's on the same day as class phototaking.

I hope I don't have to miss the phototaking. Not that I love my class or anything, but it is the last year and all. ):

Yay I pwn. Owned all the guys even. HAHAHA.

okay at least i'm happy!

Awesome I shall go study now since i'm in such a good mood.

apology

2009-07-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

So far, so good.

Piano later, gotta cut my nails. Mummy bought me a new dress. Tailor-made a copy of her old one. So it's techinically vintage. Cutting's awesome and it looks great, Just a few small alterations and I'll finally be able to wear it. Haha.

Well, sometimes I guess I read the signs wrong. Felt lonely today and I thought a close friend was angry at me. Oh well, turns out that friend wasn't. Sigh, I don't know what to do now.

And to my extremely racist and vain butch, if you're reading this by any tiny, extremely minuscle chance, I hope we still can be friends. Stop ignoring/avoiding me, you know it's childish and not very nice. Please?

And to everyone else, I'm not a lesbo k. Still obsessed over hot angmoh guys. hahahah.

madhouse

2009-07-07T21:55:00.003+08:00

shit i need to wake up and start studying.

and i'm ~~mildly~~ extremely irritated by my bloody insane mother.

"NO, YOU CANNOT MIRROR YOUR CEILING! Feng shui very bad. You can't have anything reflect you while you're sleeping, it's reflecting the dead! It's bad luck, you'll die! I WON'T ALLOW THIS!"

"I'm gonna die either way, of lung cancer from you people smoking all over the place, so what's the difference? It's not as if I'm gonna live forever, and I definitely don't want to!"(as if you'd want to live forever, watching all your loved ones die...) *flashes my best smile*

"NOOO, it'll make you die earlier! CANNOT!!! We don't want you to die earlier than needed! What if we all die too because of that? CANNOT!! YOU CANNOT MIRROR YOUR CEILING! NO MIRROR REFLECTING YOU WHILE YOU SLEEP!" *slams door*

"What the hell..." *sulks*

LIKE, WTF? I'm living in a bloody madhouse here, for goodness sakes. Oh, the worst part was that she was serious. So just imagine the entire conversation with actual emotion.

I bet my father was laughing his head off outside the room. I bet my mother glared at him and he shut up after that too. This would prolly be one of the most hilarious things I've ever heard if it wasn't from my mother and if she wasn't serious. Cuz I really want my ceiling mirrored. Looks damn cool. :D

UGHHHHHHHH. Stupid effing fengshui.

I want my mirrored ceiling. I don't care if I'm being spoilt. The only way the damn mirror's killing me if it drops on me in my sleep. Not by fucking reflecting my image and 'sapping my energy' or whatever shitty superstition it is.

Yeah, it's still pretty hilarious though. But I'm gonna laugh only after my mirror's installed. To hell with the stupid fengshui. I still can't believe my mother actually said that. You'll probably only hear of such ridiculous conversations in this madhouse I'm living in. LOL.

i wish you'd stop ignoring me.

2009-07-06T22:52:00.003+08:00

Xueying came over today(again). Currently in the process of redecorating/remodelling my room. :)

shall post up pictures soon, when everything's done.

I hate it when people say, '... ... ..., you don't care'

If you thought I honestly didn't care, why are you telling me then?

this sucks.

now, how am i going to give you your birthday gift if you're not even talking to me?

some friend, i honestly thought we were on good terms.

let's see what i can do in 3 days, then.

distraction

2009-07-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

Sudden urge to play piano. And to take outfit pictures. I'm itching to wear all my new clothes! Too bad it's 1030 at night so piano's definitely out. Plus the damn 20-question(mcq) covering 22 chapters. Awesomely smart teachers who just love doing rubbish. Ugh, I'm really not in the mood to study. I think I'll just flunk. 4 months is more than enough time for me to study :D

Haha, hopefully I'm not undereastimating the Os. Feeling kinda anxious/nervous now. Orals next week. Distraction, please.

study / slack ?

2009-07-02T16:28:00.001+08:00

Hee, huiping + xueying are at my house. Studying though :/

Physics 22chapter MCQ test tomoz. Should I study? I'm lazy. ):

triple bonus

2009-07-01T17:16:00.003+08:00

Think about the generations and to say we want to make it a better

world for our children and our children's children. So that they know

it's a better world for them; and think if they can make it a better

place.

There's a place in your heart

And I know that it is love

And this place could be much

Brighter than tomorrow.

And if you really try

You'll find there's no need to cry

In this place you'll feel

There's no hurt or sorrow.

There are ways to get there

If you care enough for the living

Make a little space, make a better place.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

If you want to know why

There's a love that cannot lie

Love is strong

It only cares for joyful giving.

If we try we shall see

In this bliss we cannot feel

Fear or dread

We stop existing and start living

Then it feels that always

Love's enough for us growing

Make a better world, make a better world.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race.

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

And the dream we would conceived in

Will reveal a joyful face

And the world we once believed in

Will shine again in grace

Then why do we keep strangling life

Wound this earth, crucify it's soul

Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly

Be God's glow.

We could fly so high

Let our spirits never die

In my heart I feel

You are all my brothers

Create a world with no fear

Together we'll cry happy tears

See the nations turn

Their swords into plowshares

We could really get there

If you cared enough for the living

Make a little space to make a better place.

Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place for

You and for me.

There are people dying if you care enough for the living

Make a better place for you and for me.

There are people dying if you care enough for the living

Make a better place for you and for me.

You and for me

Make a better place

You and for me

Make a better place

You and for me

Make a better place

You and for me

Heal the world we live in

You and for me

Save it for our children

You and for me

Heal the world we live in

You and for me

Save it for our children

You and for me

Heal the world we live in

You and for me

Save it for our children

You and for me

Heal the world we live in

You and for me

Save it for our children

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Great song.

R.I.P MJ

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Sigh, sometimes things are too good to be true. Hopefully not this time though, maybe it's finally looking up. (:

today :

2009-06-29T21:34:00.003+08:00

first day back.

Dreaded it since the start of the hols. Officially back to being the lifeless person I am, I guess. I've been feeling damn moody lately.

Finally managed to meet up with shamala after school, ate lunch and went to tpy to chill and chitchat. :D Altered my top today, looks a little weird. But nothing that can't be fixed with safety pins. Haha. Well, tomorrow's second day and there's a physics test friday on the entire syllabus. I'm definitely failing. Sigh, I barely did 5% of the entire holiday homework. Shit, really need to catch up.

Considering closing my blog till Os are over. Hmmmmmm.

last day of holiday.

2009-06-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

tsk, a load of undone homework and i'm still playing with my clothes.

Finally got my batwing tees from val and I don't really like the collar. So I made it into a V/round neck which is reversible and now it's really versatile. :B Oh and I bought a topshop dress from the flea today. Just a simple one colour(purple) racerback with good draping with a weirdly(in a nice way) shaped skirt. Been experimenting with it and I think I've found at least 5 or 6 ways to wear it? Haha, lucked out. Okay I shouldn't be playing/sewing/altering clothes at this hour when there's school tomorrow and I've got loads of undone homework. 2 months worth which I'd promised myself I'd complete in the last month. So... 3 months' worth of homework in one month plus super intense studying from now till Os. Hopefully I'll start studying seriously, even with everybody around me studying so hard I can't pressure myself to work harder.

If I'm nowhere near my full potential yet I'm doing so well(in my opinion lah, 3rd in class is already quite good :D), I should work harder to kick *****'s ass. Lol. Okay, I should work harder so that I'll score really well for Os. But what's the point if I can't go where I want to go even if I'm top in school?(even though it'll never happen) So that's why I can't find the motivation.

Okay, no depressing stuff today or I'll be in a terrible mood tomorrow. Can't wait for the weekend so I can dress up and wear my new clothes. Haha.

Sigh, now time for my homework. I have this really bad feeling I'll just leave it aside and not give a damn about it cause once I start studying it wouldn't make much of a difference.

And the worst part is I know I can do it if I try. I'm lazyyyyyy. ):

what does it matter?

2009-06-27T20:21:00.002+08:00

Shit.shit.shit. Must stop obsessing. Bad for health. Majorly bad.

Time to start chiong-ing holiday homework.

Went for the yf outing today. It's been ages since I've went. Photos up soon!

2009-06-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

Unglam shots and glam shots. Haha. Poor kengs got blindfolded from bishan all the way to the esplanade and she kept bumping into people.

The rest's on fb. (:

Mark's leaving today, it was nice while it lasted I guess. Hope he has a safe trip.

Zombie

2009-06-25T08:29:00.000+08:00

Just got home. Overnight studying at mac, I'm probably crazy. My keyboard is effing screwed, can't type properly. Ugh, sucks.

I got a new piercing! Forward helix.

Okay I just got two hours of sleep and I'm feeling damn fresh. I should go back to sleep. My dark eye circles are getting worse. Keyboard's still pissing me off. ):

A, B or C ?

2009-06-24T15:49:00.002+08:00

Tsk, multiple choice questions. Pros and cons, and everything else, what difference a night or an hour every week can make.

Ugh. The chimpanzee(FL) called while I was sleeping. Still haven't handed up my month long overdue homework. Heh. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe. Got more important things to do, like sleep. Haha. :D

24thjune

2009-06-24T07:10:00.003+08:00

STACIA I HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON!

Though you obviusly wob't see this till you're discharged... What the heck :)

Hah, just got home. I hate being so... obsessive. Sigh, it's getting damn irritating. I think I really need somebody to drill it into me that obsessing is terrible. Very very bad. Haha.

6 months to my birthday. Awesome awesome. And like 4 months plus to Os then. Not so awesome. Hell, I'm gonna start putting in effort. Really putting in effort. I think I've finally played enough during the holidays, sort of anyway. :D

Now's time to start stuyding like crazy and score awesome marks. Haha, remind me so study so I won't sidetrack! Hee. :)

fly, fly butterfly.

2009-06-23T01:51:00.002+08:00

Maybe I'm reading too much into it.

I should stop obsessing. Yes, I really really should. I hate butterflies, have I mentioned that?

Especially early morning butterflies in the wee hours like this. ):

Oh well, picnic tomorrow! YAY! hahaha. long overdue.

Celebrated for ky today w/ val, weiting & yuteng. Blindfolded her all the way from bishan to esplanade. HAHHAAH. Lucky she's sporting. It's been awhile since we've all gone out together, tho it's not the 'complete' clique. Sigh, I think we've all drifted apart so much since last year. I think the last time we all met up was during what, CNY? Suckssss.

Well, off to kill the butterflies again. I don't make sense, and I don't plan to. :D

I'll shoot those damn butterflies and they'll definitely be spot on cuz i'm a good shooter. Or I think I am, never had much problems with a revolver. Heh, the feeling of shooting is damn nice. Prolly one of the very very few things I'll miss from np.

Okay back to the damn source of the butterflies.

ultimate cutenesss.

2009-06-21T23:15:00.006+08:00

Ooooh. 60 people are online on fb, including me. Okay make that 59, I just signed off.

Hee, exciting week ahead. Birthday celebrations, cousin visits and homework. Okay, scratch that. Partially super exciting and partially dreadfully boring. Haha. Expect pics. Loadssssss of them too!

Yay. :D

Oh and this is damn cute. Stole it from val. :B

and so is my dp. hahhaha.

online shopping <3

2009-06-20T15:23:00.002+08:00

YAY THREADLESS TEES HAVE ARRIVED.

Lol. Okay this means I can start collecting $$$ and I'll have enough to pay for my next (secret)project :B.

Oh well room's in a mess tho.

YOU PEOPLE WHO ORDERED & OWE ME MONEY PLEASE PAY UP K.

Haha.

:|

2009-06-19T02:46:00.001+08:00

damn the butterflies.

typewriter

2009-06-17T00:52:00.004+08:00

Damn I just remembered I've got a typewriter in the storeroom. Ugh, must clean my room asap so there'll be space up here.

Hah, it's working toooooo. Prolly gonna drag it up tomorrow and type out a few loveletters. :B

It'll make a good prop for photos too!

Yay okay I'm just being random.

creative!

2009-06-17T00:43:00.002+08:00

Hee, just set up my second blog. Prolly will be a photoblog, thus I will be forced to take more photos. :B

Oh, and I've decided to fill up my sketchbook with awesome photo collages, awesome enough to make you jealous. Haha, just kidding. If they're that awesome I'll probably be selling them. Hmmm...

Some random sketches I plan to include :

hee, my keyboard's practically a teeny town in england now.

Hiya.

2009-06-16T15:59:00.002+08:00

Church camp's tomorrow. Still Contemplating. Downloaded about 20+ new songs today. Mostly indie. Altered some old shirts and sewed two bows. Yay, I'm getting a good start on my to-do list. Haha. :)

I'm in a mood for a midnight movie tonight. Hmmm.

2009-06-15T00:18:00.003+08:00

to-do list status: 9/50.

Oh well, it's a start.

hmmm, still considering whether I should go for church camp or not. :/

pictures!

2009-06-14T00:06:00.004+08:00

Random stuff

cute animal figurines

Russian dolls

Methinks my house really lacks a display cabinet. Too much stuff like these that should be displayed.

Shauna's birthday :D

Haha, 31May09. A day before chinese Os. Celebrated with her and stayed up till around 4, and played badminton in the middle of the night, lol.

I wonder how my birthday this year will be. I feel like throwing a big party really badly. Heh. We'll see. :)

haircut + dye

2009-06-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

Not obvious though. Hair just dried and I can't see any diff ):

Subtle cut and colouring. Just cut the top layer or my hair super short(shorter than my fringe) and dyed it reddish-brown. Now it's more versatile. :)

I think the colour's only visible under the sun. Hmmm, prolly won't re-dye it when school reopens. Haha.

random

2009-06-13T01:33:00.001+08:00

I'm in the mood for tie-dye denim. :S

And I wanna go to Vivo on sunday. Maybe morning to early afternoon. Anyone ?

Hee.

2009-06-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm. My piano teacher's son is down with swine flu. No kidding, the real deal. Oh, yay, no more piano lessons for now ):

I think I'm supposed to be scared that somebody who's infected is living in my neighbourhood. But I think I'm wondering when my next lesson will be cus I kinda miss them.

Kooky teacher + a reason to go out late = a ~~good~~awesome thing. :B

She's really an eccentric woman who's old fashioned yet modern. Teacher, advisor, confidant, entertaining and inspiring. Heh, okay enough about her. Hopefully her son will be okay.

The 20th Confirmed Case

The 20th case is a 17-year-old Singaporean male. He returned to Singapore from Los Angeles via Hong Kong on Cathay Pacific Airways CX717 on 7 June at 1230 hours. He was seated at row 38. He was fetched by a family member from the airport. Since his return, he had stayed largely at home. On 10 June morning, he developed symptoms, and a 993 ambulance was called to send him to CDC for assessment. Laboratory results confirmed his infection at 1210 hours on 11 June 09.

Gosh okay I was damn close to getting it. Bloody effing close lol. Hmm, really hope he'll be okay though, never thought it'll happen so close to home. But hey, I still wanna go to BKK. ):

And I hope my piano teacher didn't get it. That'll be a whole lot more of trouble for a lot of people. ):

holiday?

2009-06-06T11:06:00.002+08:00

I feel so lifeless. Same old routine everyday, school, home, going out with friends, going home again and sleeping (somehwat)early and waking up for school again. What a shitty holiday. Everybody's busy with school, tuition, homework and everything else. ):

the higher you go the harder you fall

2009-06-05T22:30:00.003+08:00

Saw B at orchard today. Heh, totally unexpected. Went there to get Iskandar's present. Hmmm, hopefully his party tomorrow will be fun. Haha.

fighting fire with fire

2009-06-04T22:58:00.003+08:00

Nope, it's never that easy. Maybe it's time to learn more on human psychology.

Oh and ytd's shooting was damn fun. The feeling of shooting the revolver, undescribable. Haha. Yeah, real revolver with real bullets. Pretty cool. Plus I was the best shooter, even beat all the GUYS. HAHAHA.

150/200.

Awesome, yeah?

Today was somewhat good and bad. Met E after school. Went to the beach at Punggol Road End, then watched Night at the Museum 2 at j8, and slacked at sengkang after. The beach there is damn ulu, peaceful, secluded and perfect for couples. Haha! Kinda stupid though, bishan>punggol>bishan>sengkang. Okay, really stupid.

Punggol Road End beach

And I'm really sorry, love. I just kinda broke down and I guess it was for the best even though now you're prolly in heaps of trouble. I hope you'll be okay. Love you, darling, though you're prolly not reading this.

:D

2009-06-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

Chinese Os over, and I had a blast after. Just got home. Super long chat with an overly vain and racist 'butch' pal. LOL. walked like 10km in 1.5 inch heels and my feet are fine. Effing amazing lol. Great start to the holidays, :D

1st june

2009-06-01T15:12:00.002+08:00

Chinese Os today, honestly no idea how I'll fare. What scares me is that I couldn't care less. Oh well, gonna go out and enjoy now. Yay, meeting up with a prischool friend(and no it's not N stacia!) Hahaha. Gonna be an awesome week. Heh, gonna be getting 3 "new" dresses. Auth. vintage, so they're not exactly new, but they're new to me! Lol chinese screwed my brain so I'm not making sense. Okay gonna go shower now or I'll be late. :D

99 red balloons

2009-05-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

You and I in a little toy shop
buy a bag of balloons
with the money we've got
Set them free at the break of dawn
'Til one by one, they were gone
Back at base, bugs in the software
Flash the message,
"Something's out there"
Floating in the summer sky
99 red balloons go by.

99 red balloons
floating in the summer sky
Panic bells, it's red alert
There's something here
from somewhere else
The war machine springs to life
Opens up one eager eye
Focusing it on the sky
Where 99 red balloons go by.

99 Decision Street,
99 ministers meet
To worry, worry, super-scurry
Call the troops out in a hurry
This is what we've waited for
This is it boys, this is war
The president is on the line
As 99 red balloons go by.

99 Knights of the air
ride super-high-tech jet fighters
Everyone's a Silverhero
Everyone's a Captain Kirk
With orders to identify
To clarify and classify
Scramble in the summer sky
As 99 red balloons go by.

As 99 red balloons go by.

99 dreams I have had
In every one a red balloon
It's all over and I'm standin' pretty
In this dust that was a city
If I could find a souvenier
Just to prove the world was here...
And here is a red balloon
I think of you and let it go.

Definite must-do before my 16th.

Or on my 16th if possible :D

99 Red Balloons (Nena Cover) - 7 Seconds

i wish

2009-05-27T22:23:00.001+08:00

a break from normal life.

i hate it, being so close yet so far.

relaxed

2009-05-26T19:18:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's the second chinese mocks. Hopefully I'll do better. I don't think I'll be able to stand another failure after studying. Currently relaxing on my swing even though it's drizzling very very slightly. All results are back and I guess they reflect how much effort I've put in, in a sense. Those I had studied for had scored well and those that I didn't, well, didn't do as well. Apparently I failed chinese. Well, at least it's just a borderline fail. ):

L1R5 - 9

English- 68, B3

CHS - 70, A2

Chem- 70/80, A1

Bio - 68/80,A1

A math- 50/60, A1

E math- 52/60, A1

Physics- 46/80, C5

Chinese- 47 , D7

Obsession and jealousy come hand in hand. ): Not to mention, both are unhealthy, physically and mentally. Okay I should stop rambling and study chinese. Yeah.

ugh

2009-05-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

Chinese Os in six days. Die. Argh, that's the only thing on my mind. I seriously don't wanna retake. Even if I get a C or something. ):

ugh

2009-05-24T12:34:00.002+08:00

Things keep on coming up. First was the damned poster for the project, then it was common tests, and now it's my chinese Os. Next would prolly be my piano exams, prelims, mocks and then Os. Maybe after that I'll finally have time for myself to relax and enjoy everything, look forward to my birthday and the rest of the end-of-year stuff. Till then, guess I'm gonna work hard for my piano and studies and some other stuff(heh) and maybe get all of them done. I really should stop spending so much time on facebook/lookbook/deviantart/msn and whatever other rubbish I'm hooked onto on the net. :/

I wish my internet would spontaneously combust so I don't need to use my willpower to resist temptations. Hahaha.

I need to stick to my hiatus.

2009-05-23T12:46:00.001+08:00

“Because there are 6.5 billion people in the world who live 65 years on average, today is the best day of 2.7 peoples’ lives. Today everything went perfectly for somebody. Somebody got married, somebody had a child, somebody bought a new car or moved into a new house, somebody proposed to their sweetheart, who said yes. Today is the only May 23rd, 2009 AD that will ever exist. No matter how unimportant it might seem, it’s completely unique and will never happen again. So enjoy the weed you will only smoke once, the hit you’ll never be able to replicate, that bite of ice cream or note of a song that will never happen again. Live today, live the moment, because it will never happen again.”

hiatus

2009-05-22T22:59:00.004+08:00

LUV YA TOO V. AND YOU'RE TOTALLY KINKIER K! HAHAHAHA.

Even though you're probably not gonna read this cause your laptop's dead.

♥

Hee. Poster's due tomorrow and we only found out today. Wtheck. We took like a week+ to finish the original one(going home at 11 every night cause of the bloody thing). And we had to replicate it within 12 hours. Awesomeshit I tell you. Yeah, awesomely pissing off rubbish. Ugh. Maybe I'm getting too short tempered? Maybe. I'm like, putting in so much effort when Chinese Os are just practically a week away, and I'm struggling to pass chinese. You got the nerve to say, "Oh, she'll just sit there and whine the whole time." What, you think I'm deaf? Come on, you're trying to escape with every shitty reason you've got just to watch your damn television shows. If you can go out at night when you please I don't see any reason why you can't stay out even past 6. Hypocrite. You didn't even put in any proper effort for the poster and yet you claim all the credit. With awesome friends like you I think I'm better off with my enemies. Lovely people my classmates are. Can't help but love them, eh?

I think I need somebody to calm me down before I go crazy. ARGH. ):

Chinese Os in 9 days, let's see how well I can do. Self-imposed hiatus till Chinese Os are over.

Bye.

21.05.09

2009-05-21T21:40:00.004+08:00

Uploading old/overdue photos, check out fb. Click on the banner up there ^^^. Chinese Os in like, 10 days. Die, die, die. Wonder if there's anyway to improve. Argh.

On a brighter note, All papers gotten back so far are either C6/C5 or A1. Lol. 4 A1s, and 2Cs. Amazingly, passed chinese. 100/200! Hahaha. Damn lucky. Okay I should seriously start studying chinese if I want my B3. If I can even get a B3. ):

Jeslyn, Shingpeng and Melissa came over today when I was sleeping. Maid woke me up. Felt kinda bad. Haha, oh well. Had fun anyway.

And I'm stressing over the upcoming Chinese Os. What now?

happy :)

2009-05-20T23:29:00.004+08:00

Yay. Today's wednesday. Which means I'm happy all night and my mood tides over to tomorrow morning :B

Heh, I'm probably only making sense to a few people.

CTs are over, which is friggin' awesome. Went out last night for SEAFOOD. Mouth-wateringly delicious seafood. Hahah. Sotong, stingray and mussels. Girls slept over after that. Crazy makeup, camwhoring and drinks. I think I en

ded up looking

like a deranged doll :S (pic below ). Went rollerblading at ECP today. Pretty fun. Rushed home for piano.

Oh, and Brian(some guy from my piano class) was being uber annoying. He was trying to convince me I only just passed my theory paper. Annoying git. Turned out I got 95/100 :D. And when I mentioned my (awesomeeeee)seafood dinner, he was like, "So you ate my arm for dinner?" Big-headed guy thinks he's very muscular. Hopefully

he trains his muscles till he turns out like Issac(from my class) or something.

Anyway, enough complaining about some stranger that none of my friends know. Lol. And HI HUISZE! :P

P.S. silent blog stalkers are scary.

P.P.S. I'm being hypocritical but who cares

P.P.P.S. Yeh, I'm going to continue silently stalking blogs. Heh.

P.P.P.P.S. Hmmm, hope I don't end up stalking people.

Sleepover! :D

yay.

2009-05-19T00:11:00.003+08:00

Studied today at jeslyn's again, this time with Melissa and Shingpeng. Uber fun lol.

Last paper today, and annoying LT has to put our physics datalogging lesson smack middle of our 5 hour break. Awesome guy, eh. Hopefully the next few days are gonna be fun. :D

i should be studying

2009-05-17T22:53:00.003+08:00

But there's just too much distraction here. :S

And the world's beautiful, isn't it?

ooops.

2009-05-17T16:21:00.003+08:00

I think I went too far. Sorry, better late then never.
Don't know if I'll ever have another friend like you, somebody I could talk to easily about almost anything. Maybe you're not the type that should be trusted, but still, I think you were someone that would've made a good friend, even though it was for all the wrong reasons and despite the fact you're a jerk.

Oh well, nobody know's what could've happened. A thousand 'what ifs'. We're not friends anymore but I think we both don't really care anymore. :)

Just reminicising.

2009-05-16T00:29:00.001+08:00

so close yet so friggin' far. :(

ilikeyou

2009-05-15T18:24:00.001+08:00

yeah, i do. :B

Betcha don't know who.

Oh hey, that rhymed! Yay.

picnic

2009-05-15T16:51:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to be out studying now. But I'm sitting on the windowsill in my favourite summer dress and enjoying the cooling weather(heavy rain :/), the irony. I wish I had one of those transparent gazebos in my backyard or something. That would be awesome on rainy days like these. Not on sunny days though. Stupid rain keeping me prisoner here. No sheltered path to the damned bus stop almost 1km away.

Been craving desperetely for a picnic recently. With frilly and flowy summer dresses, pretty picnic baskets and picnic mats, awesome food, hopefully dessert and definitely my camera. *hint hint*

Someone be a good friend to me and date me out for a picnic soon! Hahaha.

2009-05-14T14:32:00.001+08:00

Yay, studying with Jeslyn later. Have to dig out all my notes then I'll go over. :/

good/bad

2009-05-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Haven't started studying yet. I'm so dead meat. Oh well, at least I'm happy. Butterflies are back and the butterflies are gooooood. Haha okay I'm not making sense.Hee. :D

bleh

2009-05-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

Gonna study as much as I can tonight, and if I can't finish, screw it. I'm just gonna flunk tomorrow's papers then. Hah. Let's see how much physics formulas can go into my head within 90 minutes. Hopefully 19 chapters' worth cause there's still history tomorrow. UGH. I've had enough of all the drama and shit happening in school. Flirts, bitches, suck-ups, sluts, bastards, hypocrites and the like. Makes me miss the carefree primary school life. :/

lay low, play safe

2009-05-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

Once you're in, theres only one way-out, and from the top, the only way's down.

Don't ever take things for granted.

Honestly, you're one hell of a hypocrite.

still not feeling the pressure

2009-05-11T19:56:00.002+08:00

Can someone slap me so I'll wake up? It doesn't feel like CT period. All I'm thinking about is shopping and having fun. But I'm still studying. Yeah, gonna study now... Well soon, anyway.

Yay, I'm happy. :)

2009-05-09T16:52:00.002+08:00

30 ways to die of electrocution(bre pettis). LOL.

Managed to sew my blouse yesterday, turned out pretty good ^^. Finally managed to change my blogskin to something new, too. Halfway done studying chem, studied 3 chapters this morning, haha. Shall finish chem today and hopefully physics, ss and history by wednesday. Don't know a single thing from the history chapters this year, cause of our awesome teacher. Same with SS. Humanities this year is 100% screwed.

Mother's day. No presents/card this year, but we'll prolly go out for lunch/dinner :D. Practically a month or so since our last meal as a family(minus sissy). Haven't had meals as a complete family on a regular basis since I was six, before sissy shifted to the US. Sigh, miss her loads but it's weird saying 'I miss you' everytime we talk, which is barely, anyway. Oh well. Back to studying.

Your call

2009-05-02T23:12:00.003+08:00

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine
Stay with me tonight...

How cliche would it be to make a phone call to sing the song? Really, really, cliche I guess. But there's just that something about listening to people sing that's kinda nice. :)

happy rubbish

2009-05-02T07:14:00.002+08:00

Havoc the past two days, haven't been studying. Started DIY-ing my clothes, movie marathon, sleepovers, talking to strangers and making friends, and just chilling under the stars. I really gotta study soon. :/

a short one.

2009-04-29T21:47:00.003+08:00

Ugh screw the butterflies in my stomach. Annoying ...

Yay, long weekend. Time to attempt all my DIY projects and hopefully study :B. Heh. Just got home and I'm in a good mood as usual. Today stayed back after class and finally got Ms Aliah to explain the entire electrolysis chapter lol. At least I don't have to study that much for tomorrow's test now. Everything's still fresh. Haha. I wanna go to get some cloth from town tomorrow. Hmmm, wonder if anyone's free...

hiatus(hopefully)

2009-04-27T18:09:00.003+08:00

Great day. So far, anyway. Putting our differences aside and just leaving all the problems somewhere else, so everyone can have a good time.

Anyway, weather's been killer and everyone stinks of sweat :S. Gonna start limiting my time on the laptop. Hopefully I won't touch it again till the weekend(though kinda impossible). Going to start working hard for CTs(for real,this time!). Haha.

Bye. :D

eyecandy

2009-04-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

by val :)

Last parade's tomorrow. Haven't prepared my uniform yet. Oh well, I wonder whether I should be happy, no more meetings or stress about cca, and I'm finally free to concentrate on studies. Guess it's definitely bittersweet, certain friends I've made have really changed a lot of things. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worst. The time really flies. I don't think I'll get too emotional over this though, honestly there isn't that much to get emotional over, is there?

On a side note, I really want to go to the US next year to study. But it really feels impossible at this rate. Dad says we can't afford it. I don't know what now. I always thought I'd be able to go overseas after my Os, just like my parents promised if I did well. Even though it's been a long time(maybe almost 6 or 7 months?) since they've told me it's impossible, I just can't let go of the idea. I want to leave this country, get somewhere worthwhile.

It's not that Singapore's not 'worthwhile', it's just really not what I want. After all, everyone says to work towards what you want and make yourself happy, right?

So what now? :S

subtleties of our familiarity

contest!

Hectic week.

*sense of achievement*

headache

just cause she's so cute.

resolution

random random random

watermelonz

all work and no play makes a good nerd

mushroomsoup ftw

you know,

:P

tonguetied

ugh

when mushrooms talk

random thoughts

rant!

physics tutor, anyone?

dilemma

i did not.

i can't stand it

kiss

berry sweet

never knew

peeeektures.

what's going on with me?

germans selling jam

losing it.

finallyyyyyy

why?

i wonder if you were serious when you called me fat.

tick tock

randoms

quickie,

singing myself to sleep

♥ indie rock.

can't wait

huiszeeeeeee!

i need plasters ):

weekend

truly

a, b, c, d, e

omg i got into the shooting finals.

apology

madhouse

i wish you'd stop ignoring me.

distraction

study / slack ?

triple bonus

today :

last day of holiday.

what does it matter?

Zombie

A, B or C ?

24thjune

fly, fly butterfly.

ultimate cutenesss.

online shopping <3

:|

typewriter

creative!

Hiya.

pictures!

haircut + dye

random

Hee.

holiday?

the higher you go the harder you fall

fighting fire with fire

:D

1st june

99 red balloons

i wish

relaxed

ugh

ugh

hiatus

21.05.09

happy :)

sense of achievement